Bah Humbug!
December 18, 2007 by cookala
So, while I have a few moments to breathe, let me take the time to wish you all a very joyous holiday season now while I can, even though I’m not feeling it. Too much going on I suppose, but mainly I’m just feeling very sad and lonely these days and missing my Mom more and more with each passing day. I keep telling myself it’s going to get easier, but so far it hasn’t. I’m still eye deep in grief but life goes on and so must I. Let’s just say the holidays exact a hefty toll from me now. The grief line, as I call it, runs like this, with each of these days significant for one reason or another: October 15 - Nov 9 - Dec 5 - Dec 24 - Dec 25 - Jan 1. So that’s just about 3 months of lows with a few rare highs sprinkled in. No wonder I’m down in the mouth right now. Well, it’s to be expected I guess. I did buy myself Adobe Illustrator C3 for Christmas, though - and that makes me a little happy at least. I’ve wanted it for years now, so I finally caved in when I found it online for $250 and bought it. Bah humbug - screw the savings plan. It’s Christmas and everyone deserves a bit of joy, even me.
Here’s wishing ya a very merry Christmas and a happy New Year, Cookie.
I miss my Mum (still) and it’s been twenty years now…
thank you, Scotty, for sharing that with me - it makes me feel a bit better to know I’m not alone - not that I wish you or anyone any misery - but it’s comforting. I think you’ll understand what I mean by that. I wish you were here so I could give you a big hug. Hope you have wonderful holidays!
Special occasions such as Xmas are always hard for us who have lost our mothers and other loved ones.
“It’s Christmas and everyone deserves a bit of joy, even me. ”
- especially you.
Merry Xmas and Happy New Year.
DavidM
thank you, David. a big cyberhug goes out to you, too, along with a wish for a safe, loving and wonderful holiday season.
Tons of wishes to you, Eileen, for a serene Christmas and a wonderful 2008.
Love your Christmas shot.
Paula
heya, Paula! Merry Christmas to you, too - great to have you stop by, too!
hugs
Cookie
Hello Cookie! A belated merry Christmas to you too. I can tell you from experience that grief does get easier. It just takes a long time. I should think it takes longer the older you are, as well. You never wholly “get over” something like that, but it does get easier. I hope 2008 brings you some peace. Your new blog looks beautiful, by the way xxx
Heya, Laura! thanks for sharing that - it helps. The grief comes and goes but I think, on the whole, I’m getting through it just fine. It’s just the damn holidays. I understand better now why so many people dread the holidays. But someday I won’t dread them as much, it’s just going to take some time. In the meantime, caring and words of support from friends and family helps get me through. So, a belated Merry Christmas back atcha, and I hope 2008 is a fabulous and bountiful year for you in all ways, Laura. Hope to see you at this year’s NaPo, too! (oh, the pain! LOL) lotsa xos, Cookie